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the research magnificent-第54部分

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tree boughs Monastir was in view; a wide stretch of white town; with many cypress and plane trees; a winding river with many wooden bridges; clustering minarets of pink and white; a hilly cemetery; and scattered patches of soldiers' tents like some queer white crop to supplement its extensive barracks。 As they hurried down towards this city of refuge a long string of mules burthened with great bales of green stuff appeared upon a convergent track to the left。  Besides the customary muleteers there were; by way of an escort; a couple of tattered Turkish soldiers。 All these men watched the headlong approach of Benham's party with apprehensive inquiry。  Giorgio shouted some sort of information that made the soldiers brighten up and stare up the hill; and set the muleteers whacking and shouting at their convoy。  It struck Amanda that Giorgio must be telling lies about a Bulgarian band。  In another moment Benham and Amanda found themselves swimming in a torrent of mules。  Presently they overtook a small flock of fortunately nimble sheep; and picked up several dogs; dogs that happily disregarded Benham in the general confusion。  They also comprehended a small springless cart; two old women with bundles and an elderly Greek priest; before their dusty; barking; shouting cavalcade reached the outskirts of Monastir。  The two soldiers had halted behind to cover the retreat。 Benham's ghastly face was now bedewed with sweat and he swayed in his saddle as he rode。  〃This is NOT civilization; Amanda;〃 he said; 〃this is NOT civilization。〃 And then suddenly with extraordinary pathos: 〃Oh!  I want to go to BED!  I want to go to BED!  A bed with sheets。 。 。 。〃 To ride into Monastir is to ride into a maze。  The streets go nowhere in particular。  At least that was the effect on Amanda and Benham。  It was as if Monastir too had a temperature and was slightly delirious。  But at last they found an hotelquite a civilized hotel。 。 。 。 The doctor in Monastir was an Armenian with an ambition that outran his capacity to speak English。  He had evidently studied the language chiefly from books。  He thought THESE was pronounced 〃theser〃 and THOSE was pronounced 〃thoser;〃 and that every English sentence should be taken at a rush。  He diagnosed Benham's complaint in various languages and failed to make his meaning clear to Amanda。 One combination of words he clung to obstinately; having clearly the utmost faith in its expressiveness。  To Amanda it sounded like; 〃May; Ah! Slays;〃 and it seemed to her that he sought to intimate a probable fatal termination of Benham's fever。  But it was clear that the doctor was not satisfied that she understood。  He came again with a queer little worn book; a parallel vocabulary of half…a…dozen European languages。 He turned over the pages and pointed to a word。  〃May!  Ah!  Slays!〃 he repeated; reproachfully; almost bitterly。 〃Oh; MEASLES!〃 cried Amanda。 。 。 。 So the spirited honeymoon passed its zenith。

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The Benhams went as soon as possible down to Smyrna and thence by way of Uskub tortuously back to Italy。  They recuperated at the best hotel of Locarno in golden November weather; and just before Christmas they turned their faces back to England。 Benham's plans were comprehensive but entirely vague; Amanda had not so much plans as intentions。 。 。 。

CHAPTER THE FIFTH THE ASSIZE OF JEALOUSY

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It was very manifest in the disorder of papers amidst which White spent so many evenings of interested perplexity before this novel began to be written that Benham had never made any systematic attempt at editing or revising his accumulation at all。  There were not only overlapping documents; in which he had returned again to old ideas and restated them in the light of fresh facts and an apparent unconsciousness of his earlier effort; but there were mutually destructive papers; new views quite ousting the old had been tossed in upon the old; and the very definition of the second limitation; as it had first presented itself to the writer; had been abandoned。  To begin with; this second division had been labelled 〃Sex;〃 in places the heading remained; no effective substitute had been chosen for some time; but there was d many appetites that are not sexual yet turn to bodily pleasure; and on the other there are elements of pride arising out of sex and passing into other regions; all the elements of rivalry for example; that have strained my first definition to the utmost。  And I conceive it; marches to its end。  It saves itself for the truth rather than sacrifices itself romantically for a friend。  It justifies vivisection if thereby knowledge is won for ever。  It upholds that Brutus who killed his sons。  It forbids devotion to women; courts of love and all such decay of the chivala closely…written memorandum; very much erased and written over and amended; which showed Benham's early dissatisfaction with that crude rendering of what he had in mind。  This memorandum was tacked to an interrupted fragment of autobiography; a manuscript soliloquy in which Benham had been discussing his married life。 〃It was not until I had been married for the better part of a year; and had spent more than six months in London; that I faced the plain issue between the aims I had set before myself and the claims and immediate necessities of my personal life。  For all that time I struggled not so much to reconcile them as to serve them simultaneously。 。 。 。〃 At that the autobiography stopped short; and the intercalary note began。 This intercalary note ran as follows: 〃I suppose a mind of my sort cannot help but tend towards simplification; towards making all life turn upon some one dominant idea; complex perhaps in its reality but reducible at last to one consistent simple statement; a dominant idea which is essential as nothing else is essential; which makes and sustains and justifies。 This is perhaps the innate disposition of the human mind; at least of the European mindfor I have some doubts about the Chinese。 Theology drives obstinately towards an ultimate unity in God; science towards an ultimate unity in law; towards a fundamental element and a universal material truth from which all material truths evolve; and in matters of conduct there is the same tendency to refer to a universal moral law。  Now this may be a simplification due to the need of the human mind to comprehend; and its inability to do so until the load is lightened by neglecting factors。  William James has suggested that on account of this; theology may be obstinately working away from the truth; that the truth may be that there are several or many in compatible and incommensurable gods; science; in the same search for unity; may follow divergent methods of inquiry into ultimately uninterchangeable generalizations; and there may be not only not one universal moral law; but no effective reconciliation of the various rights and duties of a single individual。  At any rate I find myself doubtful to this day about my own personal systems of right and wrong。  I can never get all my life into one focus。  It is exactly like examining a rather thick section with a microscope of small penetratrion; sometimes one level is clear and the rest foggy and monstrous; and sometimes another。 〃Now the r
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